on a darkling plain.

i am the child of the wasteland....a land of haunted houses and monsters i call father. dark talents run in the family, but i shatter the glass to let the moonlight in, not to destroy something fragile for the feeling of breaking beneath my fists. all i can do is scream, crawl out, and keep screaming. but i can hold the sparrow, mend its wing... i am the spring rain and the hurricane... the monsters cower now, not me, not you. *xn*

so jesica dies, the girl who had a botched heart and lung transplant, then they tortured her poor body again. Someone, a nameless tragedy elsewhere, dies and against all odds she gets another heart and lung set, but because of the first screw-up, its too late. her poor body had given up. am i sad that she died? no, and don't hate me, listen. she was born with a defect, so the mighty art designer of human bodies did a slip shod version of humanity and gave the okay for her to be born into 17 years of pain, and in the end abandoned her. somewhere, whatever the afterlife is, she is free and happy and she knows all the secrets of the universe. is it heaven or is it nirvana, is god's name god, yahweh, or alah? is there even a god.. she knows all of it now- this girl has all of the mysteries of the universe solved and she is moving on to whatever humans move on to- so i don't think she would want people to say "poor thing". we will, i do, because there are wonders that wonderful spirit might have discovered here on the unique plain of existense humans rule, maybe she would have saved lives as a doctor, or saved lives as a musician, or saved lives running her foundation named after her. anyway, she is free and she is on her way, and the only thing sad are the ones left behind still wondering what the hell is going on and where are we headed to- and what is the point of it all and and and...... she knows. so don't be sad for her, be happy her suffering is over. be sad for her family, that the magic of their daughter is gone, and that they still don't know the truth of the universe, and will miss her all the years they live, but she is happy....... probably laughing somewhere. waiting for all of us.

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